Miss you Avva!

September 26, 2012 marks the first death anniversary of my beloved maternal granny - the person i loved so much on the earth.  I can't forget the date because i suffered from viral fever and hospitalised after her funeral last year. She was mother of ten, and a very nice lady. I always felt her warmth. As a boy growing up in front of her, i always admired her care and how she reared the cattle, chicken and the village household. Granny your voice is reverberating, as i recall you. Granny, I miss you so much - at least for fairness sake - had you been there - we would not have been dealt unfairly.

Two of her married daughters ended up with drunkard husbands, unfortunately, one among the two is my mom. My grandparents thought they were destined that they will suffer like this, even though i am not sure, if my grandpa also had the same opinion. After 8 months of grandma's death, my maternal uncles, divided the value of inheritance. The total worth of properties runs in many hundred thousands of rupees, while my mom's value was Rs. 40000, and so was the other aunty who also died in 2005. Everyone is certain that their lap is full, why to care for these voiceless people - who too are destined to be suffering. Why are people are unfair, man? Here the question is my uncle and aunts owns many lakhs of worth properties in town and God has blessed them well and that they are living off well, still does not want to spare a reasonable amount for us. I am not jealous of their properties, but i am angry that they they were not fair. Never have the heart to see what the children go through without parents. Let's see what time will tell. One year has passed away, thank God for enabling to tolerate this, and I am getting over, and please strengthen me. The height of all this is how quietly the entire family members taken their share citing this and that for this value for my family! Well done, guys and keep up the good work.

Happy Birthday

When my cries were unheeded
you lent your ears for me
you touched the lives of many in need
a valiant hero, indeed

When i was desolated
in durance of despair
you breathed a new lease of life
into me

when i opened my eyes
you were there for me
there you got hold of me
my life made sense to me

When you came into
my life
what good did i do
deserving to be in your care 

As the gentle breeze
soothes the soul
so did you
as good as a gentleman
charismatic, witty and cheerful

You stand there like
a beacon of light
shining around
polishing my future

When i look back at you
how previleged i am
I bow down to touch your feet
and that what a great blessing, awe-inspiring you are!!!

On a Cloudy Bangalore...

As I was drifted along the lane

The murals of wildlife provoked me

In vague, I was carried away

As the horizons of concrete jungles unfolding

The heartland of woodlands disappeared.

The Eagles hovered over far away

So did my mind!

As all walks of life passes off

A cultural haven I came across!

Who knows what lies ahead

No one can predict what's in store

If the life romps ahead

Only it has to bash on!

As the vagaries of summer transient

Let the soil smell permeate everywhere

I am afraid as to what's next

Let it chill my heart setting in.

As an expressive, beautiful face emerged

The flyover cut me off

As if the life throws tantrums

In humdrums.

Eucalyptus flowers spread their pollens

Like the yellow flakes to tread upon

Soothing my soul with joice

When the wheelbarrow moved on

My slumbers are short-lived.

The skies are overcast

Dark clouds sorrounding me

Let the showers anoint me with heavenly blessings

Monsoon, here we come!.

Preedip Balaji B.

DRTC, ISI-BC

To Kill a Mockingbird

My favourite lines from To Kill a Mockingbird novel:

....but to remember it was a sin to kill a mockingbird
I reckon because mockingbirds don't do anything but
make music for us to enjoy
they don't eat people's gardens
don't nest in the corncribs
they don't do one thing, but just sing their hearts out for us
~Harper Lee

In awe of you...

As i am walking on
the Moon smiled at me with a crescent-face
as the breeze air cool me
i started pondering

The rustling of leaves
broke my silence
as i looked back
i saw you walking past

When the leaves withering
so did my hope
when the whirlwinds carried me away
i was lost far away

You stood there awe-inspiring
with a radiant face
you took the path less-travelled
with determination and perseverance

As we saw the snail
finding its way through the woods
you said to me
i am born to win

If anything i would die for
your company all my life
if everything i wish ever
to step into your shoes

As often as i think you
my eyes are welling
in gratitude in love
with overwhelming feelings of admiration

Happy birthday Ma.

Disruptive Corruption!

As the uprising of the people across the India and overseas won the battle against corruption, what it means for a commoner? Everyday when you see the bus conductor not issuing (refusing) ticket for the next bus stop, when there is no bill issued for photocopies taken in college, when the repeated calls to attend the sanitary line is left to stinking - all these are fangs of corruption and heights of inordinate morals and delays calling for public accountability and being conscientious. Are not they?

We have a long go for a conscientious Indian, especially in the government sector. Every time you step into a government office, you know how the offices work, deliver things and its transparency level.  And the people mind has either ingratiated or buy things for money including jobs! If the system is totally rotten, its people who are equally blamable too!  People who do not know - what to do, lack of awareness and knowledge, whom to approach etc end up involving middlemen or paying bribes for getting the work done. The ordeals that you go through when you end up with government officials for getting a certificate issued is the most deplorable!

These should change, if this has to change, we the people should not take and give bribes, whatever may come! I stand for formative, upright and righteous nation, do you!

Great Pillars To Lean On!

When life was hopeless
It was my blight
When I am helpless
It became my plight!

When avalanches of life took over
Nobody dared to care
The tribulations were everywhere
To protect me nowhere

As I lay motionless
I looked out for light!
To lit my life fearless
Keeping it to be bright!

As I was crying
With problems untold
Why it had happened?
If at all to me alone!

As I started to feel numb
It seemed it is end
My life is stumped
Right here upend

As the days passed by
I was groaning
As the tears rolled by
I heard a soothing voice

As I lay bemoaning
I saw your face like fire!
When I struggled to open my eyes
You took me on your hands!

When you looked at me
I sensed your grace
When you embraced me
I felt your warmth!

When you stroke my hair
I am no longer in despair!
When you healed my wounds
You nursed it with affection!

When you bound me with cords of love
I would not have felt anything better
When you kissed at my forehead
All my troubles flew away overhead

All I am today you provided for
Completely unexpected!
How would I go astray
While I think of you all day long!

The world had sidestepped me
Forced it was meant to be
But you made me to stand out with poise
To rise above with fortitude!

When I was wretched 
You came to me stretched
You allayed my fears
There are no more tears

I think of you in gratitude
However, high I may go in altitude
You made my life certitude
And it became my attitude!

I would not ask anything else
But you nearby all time along!
I wish to take after you forever
To be compassionate as you are!

I bow down
In front of God for you
When I look up
I plead to bless you

Dedicated to Mummy and Daddy